Good week; my sleep is definitely getting better, and my energy is sometimes better too. I think, in my next acupuncture appointment in a week and a half, I’m going to ask my doctor if he can switch my herbs from a Liver/Kidney mixture to something that only focuses on my Kidneys: I haven’t been taking any herbs this month and my sleep is being under control now that it’s not so hot, so I don’t think the Liver part is particularly important these days. I’m actually thinking I should get back to Shui Gong and in particular give Shui Gong 2 a try again (it’s led to bad sleep when I’ve tried it in the past); I reviewed the videos for those but the timing hasn’t worked out right for trying them yet.

Also I feel like my ribcage is opening up. Not sure if that’s related to the Heart medicine that I’ve been taking, or if it’s just that the stretching that I’ve been doing in that area is having an effect; seems healthy either way. And I’m Songing more in daily life; mostly physically but also maybe mentally a bit? I like the way it feels on my spine and neck; I’m also noticing one kind of achy bit in my back, hopefully it’ll start working itself open? I’m trying to be somewhat aware of it but not worrying about it.

Anyways, in terms of specific practice stuff: this week’s lesson was a Tai Chi lesson, on Wu Song Shen Fa 5. Interesting exercise; I feel like the first half of it is going pretty well, but I don’t feel like I’m doing the part right where you rock your foot. I’ll keep up with that, and also hopefully find time to do a long WSSF 4 practice; didn’t happen last week and it won’t happen this week, I had unusual stuff going on both weeks.

That unusual stuff also meant that I didn’t go through all of my Chen Tai Chi forms last week, but this week I’ve already gone through all of the weapons forms I know and the longest of the empty hand forms that I know, so hopefully we won’t have a repeat. I was a little worried that the handle of my new Jian was feeling funny, but it turned out that I just needed to tighten the nut more than I had been; glad the outcome was that simple, I prefer the heavier weight of that Jian in general.

The timing of the Foundations Zoom sessions is horrible for me to participate in them live, but they released the videos of the first of them, so I spent 5 hours on Friday going through them. They covered the Hui Chun exercises; nothing super new, though there were a few details I didn’t do quite right. Maybe I should spend a little more time on those; right now I do the Kidney one once a week and the Spleen one most weeks but I don’t do the others, so conceivably I could try to rotate between the other three, doing one of them a week? But I’m not convinced that that’s the best use of my time right now; honestly I feel like I’d pretty much always prefer to do either Calm Abiding or Concentration 2 instead of those. Still, good to have an excuse to have an extra long Nei Gong day. And now there are some (five? four?, average time around two and a half hours) videos from the first in-person classes that Damo led; presumably there’s significant overlap between what he presented and what Rick presented in person (though who knows), but it probably wouldn’t be a bad idea for me to go through one of those a week.

Good Chen Tai Chi class on Saturday. Push hands in particular went well: I felt like I wasn’t getting jammed as much as I sometimes do when doing two handed fixed step push hands, and it felt like circles were going between our bodies. And we had the monthly Sunday Tai Chi class; people showed up earlier to do some standing practice, and I decided to do some regular Zhan Zhuang (instead of the lower / gentler variant that I’ve been doing on Saturdays), that went well, I got a good stretch out of that, I’ll probably switch back to doing that variant on Saturdays for a while. And then I randomly decided to do 15 minutes of Hand Maneuvers after that, and that turned out to be a good choice, too: about 5 minutes in, the way my body was doing it changed significantly, with the hand going down actively propelling the turn of my body, so I ended up turned a good amount by the time that hand reached the bottom, before the hand was moving horizontally. Not sure how much of that was from the extra time doing it and how much of it was a side effect of the Zhan Zhuang affecting my internal connections, but it seemed like a good thing either way.

We did the first couple of moves of the Double Dao; we’d done a preparatory practice the last month, and I thought I’d been doing that right, but I think in retrospect I wasn’t, because the same bit showed up in those moves and I was clearly doing that wrong. So I’ll have to figure out exactly what I should be doing there; I ripped the relevant DVD from Chen Qingzhou’s set yesterday, presumably watching that will help.

And that afternoon I had a decent Calm Abiding practice; I think I’m doing better at getting into a Shen Up state, or at least in a “Shen not being so far down as to put me asleep immediately”: I’m trying to not let the source of my attention wander to the lower back of my skull, keeping it more in the middle, and also when I relax my attention, I’m trying to let it expand out (as I do when Songing physically) instead of having my attention sink in a way that collapses.

And then on Monday I had a very good Calm Abiding practice: I was planning to do it for 45 minutes, but it was going well so it ended up more like 65 or 70 minutes. In the last third or half, I was getting this feeling that my mind was everywhere in the upper half of my body (basically everything above my waist), almost like my body was wanting to glow and/or become a pyramid. And there was a very strong tingling sensation and expansion sensation. That definitely felt like progress; on a mental level I maybe didn’t come out of it quite as chill as in my prior best Calm Abiding sessions, but I’m pretty sure that whatever was going on with my body was something useful. The only thing I’m not so sure about was that my sleep last night was weirdly interrupted, in a way that didn’t feel like any of my normal patterns for sleep being interrupted; not sure what’s going on there, maybe it’s just a coincidence or maybe a subtler version of one of the normal problems, but it feels like it’s not completely out of the question for it to be related to the Calm Abiding session? Though if that were the case I would expect it to feel more like Liver Qi rising problems.

Low energy week, with my sleep often being not great. Not sure how much was the COVID vaccine, how much was the heat, how much was something else? I’ve been feeling like I’ve been slacking some on the Spinal Waves, so maybe that’s relevant; I’ve been trying to get back to that the last couple of days, hopefully that will help.

No new lesson last week, because I was definitely feeling the vaccine then.

On Wednesday, while I was doing Calm Abiding, the point from which I was perceiving sunk down in my body; not all the way down to my Dantian, but still, interesting to have happen. It happened to me a few times a few years back, doing Silk Reeling with a particular way of approaching those exercises, but it’s been a while. Though Calm Abiding has been too sleepy; partly my iffy sleep, but I think I need to work on figuring out what Shen Up means in that context.

I’ve decided that Thursday evening is going to be Hunyuan 48 review time, and I’ve done that a couple of times. I still have a pretty large amount there to catch up with, but hopefully I’ll be able to chip away… And I did manage to review all of my Tai Chi forms this week, so that’s good. I noticed my Jian behaving oddly (weight shifting in the handle) while practicing that one, so I emailed the folks who sold it to me about that; fortunately, tightening the bolt at the bottom with a wrench seems to have fixed the problem.

Chen Tai Chi was going well this week; I’m starting to viscerally understand what Silk Reeling means, I think. I definitely got a lot out of figuring out how to present that last lesson in my Silk Reeling course.

This week’s lesson was Channel Opening 4, a seated exercise opening channels from the bottom of the torso up. And my sleep Tuesday night after doing that exercise was crappy, I think too much stuff was going on; I tried it a couple of other times in the week doing Channel Opening 4 followed by Channel Opening 3 and spending more time closing down at the end, and that was better? Still, not my favorite exercise.

Not a particularly notable week; not super energetic this week, so while I got decent amounts of practice done, there wasn’t anything special going on. And I was out of town on Saturday and some of Sunday, so I had less weekend practice than normal. I did make it through all of my Tai Chi forms, at least, so that’s something.

I got vaccinations yesterday and I’m definitely feeling the effects of it, so I’m going to skip doing a new lesson this week. I think I’m over the worst of it now, but still, no sense pushing things.

Pretty good week. It’s a Nei Gong week, I learned Cloud Hands; I spent some time on it as an isolated exercise, it’s coming together, though I’m definitely still learning something from it. E.g. partway through today’s practice I got the feeling that the Jin from my leg was both going down the opposite side to the An and my leg but also up in the same arm and turning into the Peng.

And I’ve done the Jade Pillow exercise most days, sometimes adding it in as a second seated exercise even when I was mostly working on something else. It might be helping with my sleep; maybe it’s just a coincidence, but I’ve noticed that, at bed time, I’m feeling quite sleepy in a healthy way, like my body is sending the right signals. I’ll probably start dialing down the frequency of the exercise, but I’ll keep it up occasionally for a little while longer.

I can’t remember what all I was doing on Wednesday; not much Tai Chi because I normally do that in the afternoons but I had an allergy shot appointment that kind of got in the way. Friday was good, though: I did a version of an arm / shoulder expansion exercise that Rick taught in a workshop a year or two back, and I’m glad I did that variant: definitely effective, but there’s more to do there, I remember it going deeper when I was focusing on it before (it hit my bone once), and I remember Rick even saying that it could go inside your bone. So I think I’ll start throwing that back into the mix.

And then I had a very good Calm Abiding session. I was worried that I was too sleepy to have a good session, and honestly I was dozing off some during the first 30 minutes. But then I woke up and I had 40 quite solid minutes after that.

Not as much Tai Chi as I’d hoped on Friday afternoon – I was starting to get tired in a specific way that I’ve noticed happens when I do a lot of Tai Chi or internal work, so I thought I shouldn’t push myself, so I didn’t put in my hour of Wu Song Shen Fa that I’ve been doing most weeks. But I did do my regular form work, so I got in all of the forms I know this week for the first time in a month or so. Still work to do: there are bits of the staff form that I need to solidify and one bit of the guan dao. And there is a bunch of the Hunyuan 48 that I have not learned at all solidly; I have to make a decision as to whether I’m really learning it or not this time, and if I am going to try that, I need to find significant time to carve out and work on videos. (Hmm, maybe Thursday evenings would work for that?)

My Chen teacher reviewed my form on Saturday, and I got some useful advice from him. He said that I shouldn’t be so external and I shouldn’t telegraph my movements so much: e.g. if I’m going to do something to the left, don’t move right first, keep that inside. And he said to expand a wider range of my body inside. I tried that second one out while he was talking, and it was pretty interesting; I think it might be a way into understand how to build and use Qi in a Chen Tai Chi context?

I was feeling energized after the Calm Abiding on Friday and a good Zhan Zhuang on Saturday, so I decided to try kicking off the Microcosmic Orbit on Sunday for the first time since the beginning of the summer. The prep stuff went okay but it didn’t seem quite as thick as I would have liked, so I wasn’t too surprised when stuff got stuck in the middle of my back. It probably also didn’t help that I was rushing stuff so I didn’t prepare as much as I should have, maybe it would have been different if I’d stretched out my back some first…

And I taught the final lesson of my Silk Reeling course on Sunday, about connecting up your body. I’m pleased with how that lesson went: while writing up the notes, there’s one exercise in particular that I figured out how to show mechanically how rotational movement has effects across your body; definitely helped my understand, and hopefully it made sense to my students too? And it’s having a real effect on my form, too: e.g. my body is moving quite differently now in the second move of the form. We’ll see if I teach the course again next year or if I decide to take a year off; depends on how much interest I can drum up, I guess.

My arms are wanting to sink pretty heavily during Wu Ji now; I wonder if this is related to the form of Zi Fa Gong where people fall prostrate? My arms are often ending up a little forward, which feels like it’s collapsing my body; I don’t think the forward pull is a Zi Fa Gong thing, though, I think it’s just bad positioning? So I’m moving my arms back further to my side, so the pull goes straight down my torso. That then raises the question of how worried I should be about my spine compressing; sometimes I’m trying to pull up physically more than I normally want to do, but on Monday I also experimented with letting the sink really make it down my spine into my pelvis and that was interesting, that felt like the way to go. Even with that, though, stuff might be compressing too much; maybe the answer there is to put my attention into my whole torso and hope that that leads to an inflation that protects me? I’ll see how it goes.

Good week. It was a Nei Gong week, and this week’s lesson was on The Jade Pillow; neck exercises, I think it’s helpful? Though honestly I’m not sure, because I’ve been feeling like things have been going well for a while, basically since I started doing a hundred or so Spinal Waves a day, but also it’s just getting easier to Song my neck. There’s still some noticeable tiredness in the background, but it’s not in the foreground, and my sleep is doing better; at first I thought the Jade Pillow exercises might have actually worked a bit against that, but I did a good Wood Wu Xing set and the last couple of nights have been good. And I’m feeling my back responding more when twisting it after sitting, so I think something in my spine is opening up; I don’t know if it’s related but also I’m feeling random little tingles over my body, similar to how I used to feel when the Ming Line was doing well, so hopefully that’s a sign that I’m building Qi?

I did an hour of Wu Ji on Wednesday, and no particular problem; that was a pleasant surprise, I expected it to be a bit more of a trouble. It might have helped that I entered the position in a way that Rick taught us in a workshop a year or two ago, by a certain sequence of relaxing, I felt more supported in my legs? I was also working on Wu Ji later in the week, focusing on putting my mind in my whole body instead of either in my Dantian or letting it bounce around at random; my torso definitely inflates when I do that, so I should keep that up.

I did an hour of Wu Song Shen Fa 3 on Wednesday afternoon, and this time it did actually feel a little different from when I do it for 20 minutes. About 25 minutes in, the sides of my chest started feeling more open than normal; and about 55 minutes in, the turn of my hips and the way I sink into my Kua got more pronounced. So that was cool; and I did a 20 minute WSSF 4 session and rewatched the WSSF 4 video this week since I hadn’t been doing it super regularly and it’ll be next on the list.

I didn’t do as much on Friday as on Wednesday, but I did at least do a ten minute Pushing the Tides session; first time in a while for that. Which reminds me that I should get back to trying the arm stretch that Rick taught once about putting your mind inside and then moving it. Also I’m continuing to do push-ups on Wednesday and Friday, just to get up to a bare minimum level of arm strength; I honestly wasn’t sure if doing that only two days would have me make any progress at all, but it is, I’m up to 20 pushups now.

Good week; nothing individually as good as the Calm Abiding the previous week, and I’ve been a little tired many days, but not super tired, and things feel like they’re going well inside my body? E.g. when doing Wu Ji I’m getting a nice tingly feeling much more quickly than I used to; it feels like my body is making space and getting some Qi inside
Anyways, a Tai Chi week this week; another part of the 37 form, Repulse Monkey into Diagonal Flying. Went fine, and I think I have things okay in my memory.

On Wednesday morning I did Concentration 2, Channel Opening 1 and 2, and a noticeably sleepy Calm Abiding in the morning. In the afternoon I did an hour of Wu Song Shen Fa 2; I’m still not convinced that the hour-long WSSF sessions are pulling their weight, though I’ll probably stick with them until I’ve given all of them an hour? And of course I practiced the parts of the 37 form that I’m up to. I can’t remember what I did on Friday, nothing particularly distinctive. It was still pretty hot last week, so no Chen weapons form practice (because there isn’t shade in front of our house where I practice those), though I did at least go through the Xin Jia first form. So I need to get back to weapons forms, and also to really go through the Hunyuan 48, because I definitely don’t have the last several movements there properly memorized.

On Saturday I had the regular Tai Chi class. I continued to do the Chen Xiaowang version of Zhan Zhuang before it, and I continue to like it. Paying attention to it, it sets up a bit of a stretch in my Yellow Court, presumably because of the hand position? And it gets me a decent feeling of stuff opening up inside; nothing super strong or anything, but it’s noticeable, and I feel like Tai Chi after that is more productive. I led Silk Reeling, which went decently well; one thing I’m noticing while doing Silk Reeling these days is that I’m feeling more in my shoulder than I used to, presumably because of the shoulder opening work. Also on the Silk Reeling note I started writing up notes for the fifth and final class that I’ll be giving on that in a few weeks, with that topic being on connecting the body; I’m pleased how the writeup is going, I think I can give good examples of exercises that connect the hand to the arm to the shoulder to the Dantian, and also ones that show the effects of twisting the hands and what that connects to.

The monthly Tai Chi class was on Sunday; it went really well, I felt like, both during the Pao Chui part and the Xin Jia part, my body was feeling really connected and coherent inside. And we started the Double Dao; once I’ve learned that, I’ll know all the weapons forms that my teacher teaches. I also decided to start following along with the Xin Jia Pao Chui, since we’re starting from the beginning; I’m not going to try to learn it this time, since two new Chen forms (the Hunyuan 48 and the Double Dao) is enough, but hopefully following along will give me a leg up when I do try to actually learn it the next time we restart it. And when I got home it was cool enough that I went through half of my weapons forms, so hopefully I’ll be able to go through them all this week. And fortunately none of them were disastrous.

This morning my Concentration 2 practice was better than normal, about halfway through my mind started feeling a bit quieter? There was still a bunch of chatter going on, it wasn’t like my concentration was actually good or anything, but at least the chatter wasn’t as loud?

A couple of things I forgot to mention last week: in the Foundations course, Rick mentioned getting the correct height when doing Wu Ji by paying attention to when your stomach muscles tighten up. And I started some different kinds of heart-related herbal medicines, plus one which is supposed to give me more energy; we’ll see if those help. (The latter one doesn’t actively make me feel more energetic while I take it, but I’m open to the possibility that it is helping over the course of the day.

This week’s lesson was a Nei Gong one, Channel Opening 3. A seated one; I kind of wish it were standing, because I’ve got other stuff that I want to work on while sitting! (In particular it’s making it harder to find time to keep up with Concentration 2.) It’s going decently well so far: sometimes I feel like something is relaxing physically inside me in a way that seems consistent with whatever bit I’m stretching? Not 100% sure whether that’s the main goal of the exercise or if it’ll eventually add in an active feeling of Qi movement, I’ll keep at it.

Anyways, it’s actually been a quite good practice week this week: maybe the Foundations course has given me a boost, maybe the new herbal supplements have made me less tired, who knows. On Wednesday morning I did Spinal Dao Yin, 30 minutes of Calm Abiding (I wish I’d had time for 60), and 30 minutes of Channel Opening 3, that all felt solid. Basically no time for Tai Chi in the afternoon, though, because I had an allergy shot. Friday wasn’t as good in terms of Nei Gong practice in the morning (I was noticeably more tired), and I had acupuncture, so, again, not much Tai Chi in the afternoon. Which is kind of a problem: I don’t want to lose the progress I’ve been making on forms with weapons, I definitely need to catch up with learning the Hunyuan 48, and I was doing some of Damo’s Tai Chi today and realized that I’d forgotten the last bit again. Though I did find time on a couple of days to do Damo’s 8 Energies drill, I continue to be impressed as to how strong that one feels inside of my body.

Saturday’s Chen Taiji class went well, I might actually be starting to connect to my Dantian in a productive way? And on Sunday there was a special Xinjia review class, that went really well too: it was useful in terms of reminding me of some of the details of the movements from the Chen Xiaowang workshop, but also, bits of my abdomen (some around my Dantian, some around my Yellow Court) were tingling a bit? I did some of the Zhan Zhuang variant that Chen Xiaowang taught us before both practice sessions, so that might well have helped, I’ll definitely want to keep that up. And then when I got home on Sunday, I did an hour of Calm Abiding; that was the best Calm Abiding session that I’ve had, my body was pretty perky inside while I was doing that and that feeling kept up for a while. Certainly helped that my energy level was good that day; I don’t know how much of that is the new medicines, how much is me being better at opening up my spine, how much is me actually managing to build Qi, but I’m not complaining either way.

And, speaking of opening up my spine, I’ve been good about doing a hundred or so spinal waves a day, I think that’s helping? (I might have been slacking a bit on touching my toes, I should make sure to continue with that, though.) And Wu Ji feels more interesting / productive: more of an active, healthy-feeling stretch inside my body, more of a feeling of Qi building or something inside there. I’ve also noticed that I’m sweating more than normal while practicing, even though I don’t feel like I’m working harder; if I’m optimistic, maybe that’s another sign of setting up better stretches inside my body, and perhaps of opening up space; heck, for all I know I’m managing to build Qi in that space, and the sweating is a byproduct of that? (No repeat of the feeling of warm liquid from last week, though.)

Definitely looking forward to this week; I wish it weren’t quite so hot, though, because I could really stand to spend a decent amount of time doing Tai Chi on Wednesday and Friday. Hopefully there will be a cool enough space in the park for that.

Not much in the first part of last week: I was over my cold but still easing back into things, and also I had an allergy shot on Wednesday.

The first day of the workshop didn’t go particularly well; it was a low energy day, probably because my sleep was pretty interrupted the previous night? So I bailed out rather more than I would have liked; understandable, but also, it’s a little dangerous to have that idea in my mind, I was worried that I’d keep on bailing even if I didn’t need to. There were some good parts of that day, though: there was a leg/Kua exercise that I liked, and actually part of the reason why I had a hard time standing was because I was doing an unusually good job sinking, my feet were feeling a lot more pressure than normal!

Fortunately, I slept quite a bit better on Saturday night, and Sunday went well. (Both for me and for a lot of the other attendees.) We had a good stand that day: maybe 50 minutes in Wu Ji plus 25 minutes of Dantian Gong? So that felt good.

Not sure that I have any big takeaways of things I want to do differently, but I am going to try to fit a little more exercising in random holes in my day. Rick mentioned doing 50,000 Spinal Waves as a benchmark a couple of times; I’d already been thinking I should do more of those, and I was thinking that, if I do 20 Spinal Waves each time my watch tells me to stand up, it shouldn’t be too hard to get in 100 a day? And if I keep that up for a year and a half, then that’ll be 50,000 of them. (Though, to be sure, I’ve already done some amount. Not nearly that much, though.)

Another thing that Rick mentioned a few times is that, if you’re having a hard time sinking, it’s probably because part of your brain is a little scared to do that because your legs aren’t strong enough. And I think that’s probably more accurate for me than I’d like: my legs have gotten better with the Tai Chi but there’s still more room to go. Rick showed us a leg / Kua exercise that I rather liked, and mentioned starting with 10 times on a side and working up to 25 times; that seems like something I can do while waiting for a train or waiting for my lunch to heat up in a microwave? I’m pretty sure I can actually do 25 on a side just fine now, actually, but still, doing them more often will help. I should probably also work on my arm strength too; maybe I’ll throw some pushups into my warmups on practice days, but I’m not committing to that yet.

I was doing Wu Ji today, and all of a sudden my abdomen started feeling warm, like there was warm liquid in there (or on there). Never felt that before, I’m curious if it’ll come back again; presumably a sign of progress of some sort.

I was sick for most of the week, so no new lesson last week; and no new one this week, given that I’ll be at a Foundations workshop this weekend. And no practice most of the week, but I started getting better on Friday and so I started dialing things back up a little bit over the weekend. I had a good Calm Abiding on Saturday; I’m still bad at sustainably relaxing my mind but at least I’m starting to get a feel for when my mind isn’t relaxed at all! I’m back up to normal today, fortunately, so no worries about going to the workshop; energy levels are good, I actually ended up doing a little more practice than normal on my work days.

I was enjoying my back stretches once I was feeling better. And I’m getting a sense for where issues are there: there’s one spot in the middle of my back in particular that feels off. So I should probably work on that; maybe Coiling Snake (I did some today, though unfortunately I get the feeling that it’s actually not so great at dealing with the middle of my back?), maybe Spine Waves, maybe something else.

One thing that I forgot to mention from the workshop: a regular part of Chen Xiaowang’s instructions while standing was to listen behind. Which I’d started to do sometimes when doing the form a few months back, but I’d lost the habit, and I hadn’t been worrying about that at all when standing.

Also I was thinking a bit about Qi and my Dantian in a Tai Chi context, and I decided to play around a little bit with seeing if I can send Qi / Jin out from there the same way I can send it up from my feet while doing the Wu Song Shen Fa exercises. And I feel like I can? I haven’t experimented with it too much, though; and I’m still curious if that has anything to do with how Chen Tai Chi uses Qi, or if it’s just a Yang thing.

I was going through the Lao Jia first form on Sunday, and for whatever reason my body was rather mor interested in doing strong punches and what not than it normally is. (And they seemed higher quality than normal, too.) No idea what was going on there, we’ll see if it continues, but it was interesting, I wouldn’t mind leaning into that a bit. We’ll see whether I have much time to practice this week, though; Wednesday and Friday are my normal heavy practice days but I’m traveling on Friday and I’ve got an allergy appointment on Wednesday afternoon.

It was a Tai Chi week for me in the Internal Arts Academy; continuing with the form, Punch Under Elbow this time. The most interesting bit for me there was hearing Damo explain what Silk Reeling Energy means in that context, and how it’s different from other kinds of energy; good to hear, though I’m not sure how similar it is to the use of the same term in a Chen Tai Chi context. At any rate, it took me a few practice sessions to get that part of the form into my body (and I’m actually still working on the previous section, though I’m getting better at it), but I do rather like it now that I’m used to it. And I’m also getting noticeably more used to the Eight Energies drill, I like how that affects my body too.

Good practice on Wednesday; okay morning, 40 minutes of Wu Ji plus 20 minutes of Concentration 2. (In general I found more time to do Concentration 2 this week than I had been, though I definitely need to keep on working on that, no real progress there yet.) And then in the afternoon I decided to do a single hour of Wu Song Shen Fa 1, instead of doing three different WSSF exercises for 20 minutes each; I was actually a little disappointed with that, it didn’t feel particularly different, but I did some silk reeling after that and it felt noticeably more interesting than normal, so that might have been related? I’m honestly not sure; I’ll probably keep up the experiment over the next month or so.

And then this weekend Chen Xiaowang was in town giving a workshop. And that turned out to be really good, much better than I expected. On Friday morning the main event was having us all stand while he methodically went over to each of us and adjusted our posture. Which took quite a while, but that was okay, it just meant that I got extra standing practice. Some people got a huge amount out of that, it felt like it had been really transformative to them; he didn’t adjust me so much, though he had me lower / relax my arms quite a bit compared to the position I’m used to doing Zhan Zhuang in; some other little tweaks, especially on my Kua, and there was also a bit where he just kind of held onto my hand and, after a few seconds, my lower back and other parts of my body started wanting to relax, that was interesting.

I talked to my regular Tai Chi teacher about the difference between that and the way I’d been doing Zhan Zhuang; his take was that, because it was a more introductory workshop with a range of students, Xiaowang was having us do an easier version. Which has its virtues: people were really interested in it, they got him to do it some on Saturday morning too, and some people who are in my regular Saturday class asked me if I’d be up for doing Zhan Zhuang with them regularly at the start of class.

That got me in a mindset to do more work, and we had a two and a half hour long lunch break; I was walking past a church on my way back, and it had a labyrinth, so I slowly walked that, and also had a good Tai Chi practice session after that. (Yang instead of Chen, hopefully I left enough break between the two.) And then in the afternoon Xiaowang was talking about Silk Reeling; I was unfortunately kind of sleepy so I didn’t really pay attention during the first half of the afternoon, but during the second half of the afternoon, it was pretty noticeable how my hands were rotating together, kind of like they’re on gears.

And then somebody asked him a question about pushing off from your foot, and he gave a really interesting answer. He pushed off from his foot in a clumsy way and said that doing so is contrary to all Tai Chi principles; and then he talked about a car, where you move from your engine instead of from the tires, with the engine being your Dantian and the tires being your feet.

So that’s pretty clear: I’ve heard Chen folks (including my teacher) talk repeatedly about moving from your Dantian, but that was a very clear statement that yes, that’s the way you should move. And the car analogy is kind of suggestive: the engine doesn’t move the car on its own, power has to go from it through the drive train. So, in the body, the drive train is connections along the inside of your body; I’m already feeling those (I think the coordinated hand rotation is an example of that), I should keep on working on that, and also try to make sure that the direction of force goes in the appropriate direction.

That makes me feel like I understand Chen Tai Chi better, and in particular how it differs from Yang Tai Chi as Damo explains it, because that method of energy generation is completely different than what Damo’s videos talk about. Thinking about it more, though, I guess there’s still one important part I don’t understand in Chen Tai Chi: I still don’t understand what Qi is and how it works in that context? Xiaowang brought up Qi several times in the workshop, it’s definitely a thing in Chen Tai Chi too, but he didn’t talk about it in enough detail for me to really understand it.

Anyways, that was Friday; on Saturday and Sunday we went over the first half or so of the Xinjia first form. I got more reinforcements on the coordinated hand movements; and there were some details that either I hadn’t noticed or that were a little different from how my teacher has been teaching it. Xiaowang did a good job of teaching us that; he clearly has a lot of experience running large workshops!

I had another good practice over lunch on Saturday, but I was again a little tired in the afternoon; on Sunday I rested some and had a pretty good Calm Abiding session, and that felt better. In general, I felt like I was stressing my body, but in productive ways.

Unfortunately, on Monday it seemed like my body might have been going through some less productive stress: I woke up and was clearly sick. I assume I picked something up at the workshop: several people were sneezing and COVID is going around in general, and while I put on a mask halfway through, that still left a day and a half when I wasn’t protected. Or maybe I picked up something before then, or was just a little weak from overexerting myself; who knows. Nothing horrible yet; and I was expecting it to be worse today but actually I felt about the same, maybe even a little better? I’m not even sure what I have; it’s a little unusual, I would normally expect to be a lot more congested by now, whether from COVID or from a regular cold or flu or what. Anyways, hopefully it won’t be too bad, I’ll be annoyed if it means that I have to miss the first Foundations workshop next week.

No new lesson this week, given that, I’m mostly going to be taking things easy.